Sixty Days-The Half Way Point

The Sinclair Method says it takes up to four months to see progress. So I am at the halfway point. I have my good and bad days. Last night I almost drank a whole liter of yeager and I blacked out but there is some nights I do really well though. The way I see it is at least make to to four months and see what happens. The great part is I no longer crave drinking in the mornings which is a life saver. I guess in a nutshell I am saying I've saw improvements but I am not where I want to be.

Almost at The Sixty Day Mark

Well its day 58 for me I think if I am adding correctly.  ....Well I went to Albany, New York last Tuesday and got home on Memorial Day (yesterday May 27th, 2013) The whole time I was there  I drank more then I normally have been. I lost my Naltrexone one day so I didn't take it one day. The next day I did take it though. I did a drinking contest called the "Power Hour" where you shot one ounce a beer a minute. Which is only 4 beers but me being a show off shot a few shots of Irish whiskey with it to. Which was not bright . I threw up which is abnormal for me  but I did the last the longest (53 minutes). I haven't threw up drinking in a long time and I drink a fifth or more a day. I also read a book by Ozzy Osbourne I Am Ozzy . I thought I was a drinker it almost made me feel like I am a normal drinker...Sometimes I think I read books like that to verify with myself that it is alright to drink like a fish but never the less I love Ozzy and his music and I highly recommend it. It also gave me hope because if someone like him can come through it so can we. Anyways  last night when I got home from the trip (I took my Nal..bout an hour before I got home :) ) I drank a tequllia and lemonade drink and I opened a beer. I didn't finish neither..so I went to bed sober which was great on my part and I feel like being sober today. I don't wanna get my hopes up but I feel like the Nal maybe starting to make that switch within me. I can only hope.... 

Still Holding On and More Nal Ordred

I am still drinking heavy but I am still holding on to hope that this will work. It says give it 4 months, I am in my second month, so I still have a while to go. I am only half way there. I don't have insurance right now so I don't have enough money to go to a Dr. So I went through AllDayChemist.com they are the cheapest place to get Nal. It does take a few weeks for it to get in  I am not running low yet but I wanted to make sure I had a steady supply ready  so I went ahead and ordered more and its in. So I have enough to do me for six months if I drink everyday. Hopefully I break the disease. The will is there I know. 

Been Slacking on Keeping Up On This

Well its been about 15 days since I have wrote on here which is inexcusable on my part so I apologize. Lately if I was not working I was traveling but I will tell you I have slowed down a little but not a lot. I've polished off a fifth a few times during these 15 days and I have took two days off drinking so I guess that is better then drinking a fifth a day. I've cut back on my smoking grass because I seem to eat the whole kitchen when I am in that state. I believe its working but it can't happen soon enough. I will try to get on here more often and update. 

Day 31: Got Plastered

Well I took my nal like I should've and a few drinks later it was five o clock in the morning and the misses was getting ready for work and I woke up wet on the couch from spilling my drink on myself (I don't think it was urine). I've noticed I am drinking more right now. I drank two shots of yeager, shot of 90 proof beam, and a half bottle of Wild Turkey 101 and a few beers with that. Seems like I am back to normal as far as drinking goes. Although I am much drowsier  I think because of the naltrexone. Im going to try to start updating daily again. 

Day 25-30: I am Drinking More Right Now

Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Been super busy with work and drinking. I am still taking my Nal like I should (an hour before drinking). I have saw an increase in my drinking which from what I understand is what is come to be expected. I just keep holding on to hope I will wake up and not care about the drink anymore. All I can do is keep pounding the booze and taking my nal. I am drinking less then I used too though. I am drinking more beer and less liqour which is a good thing. Probably about 5 beers a day and little under half a fifth of 80 proof.