I guess before I tell you what the cure to alcoholism is and what I've been told the cure is I will tell you a little about myself. My name is Chris. I am a small business owner in a small town. My problem with alcohol began early on in my teen life and has chased up to now. I am now 34, I'd say I was a full blown alkie by the age of 24. That is when I took a night off of heavy drinking and I noticed I couldn't sleep and I was sweating. I didn't know it at the time, I thought it was the flu or something. Only later on after having several withdrawals did I look back and realize that was what was going on.
In 2007 I decided I wanted to change after several accidents and run ins with the law. I almost lost my job a few times too for coming in drunk, over sleeping and so forth. So I went to rehab! There I took a 30 day break from ol alcohol and I learned about AA/NA. I believed I stayed sober for couple of weeks afterword, the one guy who believed in me tried to get me to go to AA but I was hesitant. I didn't think a bunch of ol men could help me stay sober. Never the less, without guidance I quickly slipped back into alcoholism(I thought I could go to the bar and just have one).
Year later I realized I was calling rehabs/hospitals for help in the middle of the night. Once I woke up out in the yard with bottle in hand! My father frustrated finally got me in the car and forced me to go to an AA meeting. The men in there told me I was a fucking alcoholic and I couldn't drink normally!
Few days after that I was drinking some beer down the tracks and realized it was time for a change. I finally got admitted to a hospital for a few days to detox and when I got out I went straight to AA! I meet a great guy my first night there his name was Jim. Me and Jim had a lot of familiar stories, so I respected his insights into alcoholism.
So except for one minor slip, the next two years were filled with the big book, god,coffee, and a lot of the same stories over and over. I have to admit I found a lot of guidance from those men but they wanted me at every meeting every where. I felt like I was staying in the problem then staying away from it because my life still revolved around drinking even though I was sober. So after two years of sobriety I felt I was well enough to leave AA.
Around that time I also started changing my spiritual beliefs too. Reading became my new hobby. I started reading about different cultures and beliefs. It became apparent to me my belief in a god was dwindling. I found myself disbelieving the book I was raised to believe was the word from god(The Bible).
So for the next few years I found myself in the best physical shape I have ever been in and the best financially. The job that almost fired me a few years ago reluctantly gave me a raise to a director. My pay increased 4x. I also went on to college too, bought a home and car and all the rest of the good stuff. Sounds great doesn't it?
Also around this time I opened a new business with a business partner. My life is turing out great. I also met a beautiful woman who I now think is the best thing that ever happened to me.
Well long story short. My business expanded and I quit my day job. The money isn't like I was projecting it to be. I started getting frustrated with business partner around this time too ( we still work together though). One day at Walmart I decided I wanted to get some beer feeling I needed an escape. When I got home I chugged beer and I even said "hell with it I am drinking beer might as well drink yegar too!"
So after five + years of sobriety I relapsed. I have almost kept steady drinking everyday. I usually drink a fifth or more a day. Oh yeah my health quickly declined too! I have gained a 100lb!
Which brings me to where I am now. I have been alcoholic long enough to know it gets worse with each relapse and I know what track I am on. I don't want to go to rehab for them to take 30,000 dollars just to tell me to go to AA. I don't want to go to AA because I believe the answer is in science and not a spirtual defect. It doesn't make sense that my drinking is because I am spirtually screwed up, I don't even believe I have a spirit. So out of desperation I looked on Amazon one day for the alcoholism cure and behold the first book that came up was the "The Alcoholism Cure" by Roy Eskapa.
In "The Alcoholism Cure" Dr. Eskapa showed how taking a pill called Naltrexone an hour before you drink could deaddict you and after four months you would be able to drink responsibly . The Method is called "The Sinclair Method" named after the doctor who found the cure.
My goal in this blog is to try to do The Sinclair Method to see if it actually works. I started on April 1st,2013. This is my second day into the method and I will be updating regulary to show everyone if it truly works.
In 2007 I decided I wanted to change after several accidents and run ins with the law. I almost lost my job a few times too for coming in drunk, over sleeping and so forth. So I went to rehab! There I took a 30 day break from ol alcohol and I learned about AA/NA. I believed I stayed sober for couple of weeks afterword, the one guy who believed in me tried to get me to go to AA but I was hesitant. I didn't think a bunch of ol men could help me stay sober. Never the less, without guidance I quickly slipped back into alcoholism(I thought I could go to the bar and just have one).
Year later I realized I was calling rehabs/hospitals for help in the middle of the night. Once I woke up out in the yard with bottle in hand! My father frustrated finally got me in the car and forced me to go to an AA meeting. The men in there told me I was a fucking alcoholic and I couldn't drink normally!
Few days after that I was drinking some beer down the tracks and realized it was time for a change. I finally got admitted to a hospital for a few days to detox and when I got out I went straight to AA! I meet a great guy my first night there his name was Jim. Me and Jim had a lot of familiar stories, so I respected his insights into alcoholism.
So except for one minor slip, the next two years were filled with the big book, god,coffee, and a lot of the same stories over and over. I have to admit I found a lot of guidance from those men but they wanted me at every meeting every where. I felt like I was staying in the problem then staying away from it because my life still revolved around drinking even though I was sober. So after two years of sobriety I felt I was well enough to leave AA.
Around that time I also started changing my spiritual beliefs too. Reading became my new hobby. I started reading about different cultures and beliefs. It became apparent to me my belief in a god was dwindling. I found myself disbelieving the book I was raised to believe was the word from god(The Bible).
So for the next few years I found myself in the best physical shape I have ever been in and the best financially. The job that almost fired me a few years ago reluctantly gave me a raise to a director. My pay increased 4x. I also went on to college too, bought a home and car and all the rest of the good stuff. Sounds great doesn't it?
Also around this time I opened a new business with a business partner. My life is turing out great. I also met a beautiful woman who I now think is the best thing that ever happened to me.
Well long story short. My business expanded and I quit my day job. The money isn't like I was projecting it to be. I started getting frustrated with business partner around this time too ( we still work together though). One day at Walmart I decided I wanted to get some beer feeling I needed an escape. When I got home I chugged beer and I even said "hell with it I am drinking beer might as well drink yegar too!"
So after five + years of sobriety I relapsed. I have almost kept steady drinking everyday. I usually drink a fifth or more a day. Oh yeah my health quickly declined too! I have gained a 100lb!
Which brings me to where I am now. I have been alcoholic long enough to know it gets worse with each relapse and I know what track I am on. I don't want to go to rehab for them to take 30,000 dollars just to tell me to go to AA. I don't want to go to AA because I believe the answer is in science and not a spirtual defect. It doesn't make sense that my drinking is because I am spirtually screwed up, I don't even believe I have a spirit. So out of desperation I looked on Amazon one day for the alcoholism cure and behold the first book that came up was the "The Alcoholism Cure" by Roy Eskapa.
In "The Alcoholism Cure" Dr. Eskapa showed how taking a pill called Naltrexone an hour before you drink could deaddict you and after four months you would be able to drink responsibly . The Method is called "The Sinclair Method" named after the doctor who found the cure.
My goal in this blog is to try to do The Sinclair Method to see if it actually works. I started on April 1st,2013. This is my second day into the method and I will be updating regulary to show everyone if it truly works.
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